Day 5: Mixed Emotions

Meal 1: I don't remember. Chicken and applesauce maybe? (I really need to go grocery shopping; this is getting repetitious. But, I probably wouldn't prep anything even if I did go shopping.)
Meal 2: I made almond flour pancakes and fried a prosciutto. I may or may not have cheated on this one. I can't remember what's a cheat and what's not. Killed me making those things, though. My legs hurt somethin' fierce today. Maybe it was the rain; no joke. Jae LOVED these! Joey, not so much.

(last bottle of Gatorade. Promise the boys will go Paleo when I have more energy or get my act together. Whichever comes first.)

This is a rare occurrence from Jae: 

Meal 3: Trying to think of what I could eat. It's 9:47pm and probably too late to eat dinner anyway. I've been a bit.. emotional.. as they say.. didn't have an appetite for anything.

{my day}

Today was awesome, though! Happy day, sad evening.  This morning, my friends were able to help me out.. a lot! They came and cleaned my kitchen! Like, deep-cleaning cleaned. I crawled around the living room tidying up as much as I could. Jae went to friend's husband to play and I put Joey down for a nap, so he slept while we were all cleaning. I am so grateful for their service! I know my friend may feel the works of her labor tomorrow morning, so I am very grateful to her! When my friend dropped Jae back home, he had a flower for me! Apparently before I got to the door, Jae told her he wouldn't eat the flower. LOL! She took him to the floral shop and he picked out the flower. So, so sweet! Girl, you sure know how to brighten one's day! Ok, and Jae! :)

i < 3 my gerber daisy!

As I was getting lunch cleaned up, I hear Jae calling for me. "Mom! Come hewe, come hewe! It's an emewgency!" (How does he know how to use that word?!) I went over to the pantry and there was Joey.. throwing jarred baby food (why do I still have those?) on the floor. The carrots broke open, so I put him in his crib so I could clean up the mess. Jae was so cute and wanted to help, but I told him it was dangerous with the broken glass. (Ha ha, how'd you know? Here comes a YouTube vid..)

Yes, the little stinker even smiled and said, "cheese" for the camera.

By the time I got that cleaned up, I was exhausted! I went to go take a nap and let the boys mess up the living room. >.<  Then, a little later, there was a knock on the door. It was another friend! Oh, crumb! Totes forgot she was coming to cut Jae's hair. Ha ha! I'm glad she remembered! How awesome and what a great service! It was fun to visit with her while she cut Jae's hair.

I'm so humbled by all this service! Relief Society is such a wonderful organization! I'm still trying to figure all this food out, but I'll get there! In the meantime, meals, haircuts, cleaning, and babysitting have helped me so much! I'm not the best in receiving service, but I love to give service!

Before Jimmy got home from class, I locked myself in my room and had a little crying fest, ha ha!  Just over-analyzing things. And then, Kristina called me! I had been texting her earlier. It was great talking to her--we were roommates for a little while at BYUH. I guess I just don't think to call people because I never have minutes. >.<  We both have 2 boys about the same age and it was a treat to actually talk to her. And then I texted/chatted with Amy and Amber and all my problems seemed so small. Time will do what will happen with my health. In the meantime, I hope this is my only cry-fest for the next 2 months. ;)

{next}

Jimmy let the boys in the room and we all hung out before bed.

Brothers :)

(I was actually trying to get a pic of Jae because he is so handsome w/ his new haircut and Joey decided he wanted in, too):

(Well, this was as best I could do. He doesn't hold still for very long.)

Tomorrow will be a great day of rest for me! A sister in the ward is going to take the boys for me for a couple of hours. How wonderful!

And... This is the song you were thinking of, too--right?!
{symptoms} leg heaviness tiredness lightheadedness etc. :P

Whole 30 to Start Whole30

Today was a FAIL. I feel like it's going to take me 30 (days) to start Whole30. I was too tired to make breakfast.  However, I cooked the boys eggs, gave them string cheese, I ate a couple of almonds, and went back to bed. Feel free to call me lazy, but I'm not. Trade me places for a day and you will find it's easier to judge than it is to walk in someone's shoes for a day. (Some ADD could be affecting this, too. You know, putting things off..)  It wears me out doing any errand and then I just want to relax when I get home. Like, today at my sleep study consultation!

Breakfast is supposed to be eaten an hour after waking. Hmm, gonna have to work on that one!  I just need a day to make a bunch of purees, broths, and plan meals, but I am always too tired by the end of the day to do that. You know, gotta try to tidy up this mess a little bit (no, talking about the apartment, not me)! I feel like I'm in limbo... but, tomorrow is going to be the end of that. I have a friend who will be coming to help me get things rolling. She's been where I am before and I am grateful to have someone who can understand this mess I'm in!

So, tomorrow is the start of my 30+ day diet. :)

I went to my sleep study consultation today. I felt it was a waste of time when it was something they could have done over the phone. (Except the vitals.) It took me 2 weeks for this appointment and now I have to keep a sleep diary for 2 weeks and then go in a week later for the sleep study. I feel like I will feel better (at least have enough energy to function throughout the day) before I even do the sleep study! I wouldn't mind canceling, but we'll play it by ear and see what happens.

I'm writing this early so I can go relax. After I got home from the sleep study consultation I cleaned in the kitchen until I couldn't do anymore. Still needs work, but I did what I could. Wouldn't it just be easier to do the dishes after every meal? Yeah, you'd think that would be the way to do things. :P